Mother of a Vaccine Injured Child's Blog

Let me know what you think. I got the list of links from another source. As you know my child suffered a severe vaccine injury. She was hospitalized the same day she had the vaccinations.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18251695 Any vaccine used against an influenza strain of pandemic potential will have an incompletely described safety profile
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16897648 Vaccine-derived polioviruses: is it time to stop using the word "rare"?
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16897650 An outbreak of poliomyelitis caused by type 1 vaccine-derived poliovirus in China
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/6741921 However, despite short-term success in eliminating the disease,

long-range projections demonstrate that the proportion of susceptibles in the year 2050 may be greater than in the prevaccine era
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/17092614 The case fatality was increased for children who had received DTP

with or after measles vaccine compared with children who had received measles vaccine as the most recent vaccine
http://www.bmj.com/cgi/content/full/333/7560/174 Most of the children in our study had received a full set of primary immunisa

 
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/999560
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/10075162
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/14690341
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15722255 HBV is remarkable by the frequency, the severity and the variety of its complications, some of them probably related to a mechanism of molecular mimicry leading to demyelinating diseases, and the others reproducing the spectrum of non-hepatic manifestations of natural hepatitis B
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16176857 HBV has an unusual potential to induce central neurological disorders amongst others unwanted side-effects
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/9481001 a causal relationship between measles vaccine and encephalopathy may exist as a rare complication of measles immunization
http://www.sarnet.org/lib/ATT01062.pdf Neurotoxic effects of thimerosal at vaccines doses on the encephalon and

development in 7 days-old hamsters
http://tinyurl.com/6dcwal
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18087166

 
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11334497
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/9540269
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/181972
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/3143767 The study showed that the measles vaccine produced a significant long-term immune suppression
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/8620622
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18340332 Seizures
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/10648110 temporal relationship (i.e. always 2-3 months following immunization) is impressive
http://cat.inist.fr/?aModele=afficheN&cpsidt=15514388 the results tend to support the hypothesis that vaccination could enhance the risk of autoimmunity in genetically susceptible individuals when exposed to certain environmental chemicals
http://www.pubmedcentral.nih.gov/picrender.fcgi?artid=1508496&blobtype=pdf Testing of participants in 2 national surveys demonstrates no significant decrease in hepatitis B virus infection, despite the availability of hepatitis B vaccine

 
Unexpected Effects of the vaccination program
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18820583 mumps outbreaks included ones with 77% to 97% of students having

had 2 doses of a mumps vaccine
http://www.news-medical.net/?id=12896 Shingles on the rise
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18999945 Shingles on rise since 2001
http://tinyurl.com/5bgbh4 sero-replacement
http://www.pnas.org/content/94/12/6571.full.pdf
http://www.hindawi.com/getarticle.aspx?doi=10.1080/17402520500285247 molecular mimcry
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18490084 Sleep Apnea
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15356430 It seems that the aforementioned pathomechanism may also be responsible for some cases of sudden infant death syndrome, which is often preceded by infection/inflammation

 
7. Vaccines and Autism
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/12145534 we suggest that an inappropriate antibody response to MMR, specifically the measles component thereof, might be related to pathogenesis of autism
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16512356 MMR vaccination may increase risk for autism via an autoimmune mechanism in autism
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18482737 Consistent significantly increased rate ratios were observed for autism, autism spectrum disorders, tics, attention deficit disorder, and emotional disturbances with Hg exposure from TCVs
http://www2.swinburne.edu.au/lss/sabri/documents/JRS436.pdf An epidemiological analysis of the 'autism as mercury poisoning' hypothesis
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16698940
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/17974154 It is concluded that, autoimmune response to dietary proteins and deficient immune response to measles, mumps and rubella vaccine antigens might be associated with autism, as a leading cause or a r
 
6. Measles and MS
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/6991427
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/265664
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/938265
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/996452
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/1113135
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/4525071
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov%2Fpubmed%2F4199588&h=0d33a30401f826e836a7d1946ea29e01
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/4629257
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/5528551
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/4934707

This is a video that I think could be used in a variety of venues.

This is one of my favs that I found tonight.

Cardboard Testimonies are becomming more and more popular because of the message- God loves and cares for you. You are more than worth it.  Change through Christ is possible. Try telling me that change is not possible. I double dare you.

I found these videos on YOu Tube . I have my favorites but all are good.

This is one of my favorites:

My 2 daughters are in the very first wearing identical dresses. My daughter's poster was carried by another child very much like Athena. I was so proud and still am. They will not silence the mothers, the parents. We want safe vaccines. See the poem "You Poor Thing" that follows this post. Angela I give you my heart.

YOU POOR THING

Intake of breath,

"You Poor Thing" you say

How I hate that phrase
I despise it.
How often have I heard those words
Perhaps you have heard "those" words
Or you have said them yourself
Since when is a Dx a tragedy?
Tell me I want to know.
Tell me I need to know-Why?
I am PISSED.

My child has Vaccine Induced Autism
Four Vaccination shots then 6 hours later-
Hospitalized
She suffered physical harm
Imagine blood in your child's diaper
Seizures, unstoppable vomiting
A Team of Doctors
and nurses surrounding her
Then later the dx of Autism

However-
She is not incomplete.
Nor is she "missing a piece"
In fact in some ways
she is better off than you.

She will always be in touch with the earth.
She will always be bluntly honest
She will always be unique.
She will always be able to "talk to the animals"
She will not conform to the norms
Thank God for that
Have you seen the "normal" children?
I have been told that she may be reading
She is four years old.
Nothing poor about that-
even by so called normal standards
She has introduced me to a rich world
How did I breathe air without her?
How could I see the beauty surrounding us
without her pretty brown eyes?

Expectations change
I have changed
I want more now.
I need more.
I need you to change you for my daughter
I need you to see that my child is capable
I need to see Thimerosal (mercury)
"eliminated" out of vaccines
not just removed
No more injuries due to vaccines
Poor thing my foot!

Pacing circles,
I have to do something
Anything
I am fighting, VOTING MAD !
Vaccines harmed my daughter
People still say "You Poor Thing"
Please stop
I cannot bear it
Hear me-LISTEN

Especially when I whisper
Celebrate my daughter - She is here
She is Alive and She loves!
Look at her, LOOK
I dare you to look at God's Love in the face.

Instead of saying "You Poor thing"
and giving me "the look"
Be my friend
Ask me "What Can I do?"
I have a answer
Then I can exhale.

So I am sitting here and ....

Around me are Lincoln logs,

books and learning games, 

mixed in with crayons, beach towels

and glasses half full of Kool aid

water-staining  the  tables

I need to finish the dishes and

the stairs need to be swept

 I am beside myself

thinking of all the hours of therapy

and more play therapy yet to be done today

I am spent on this Friday

My body is tired and rebelling

My knees swell with indignation

Why can't we be normal

like the rest of them

WHY

I pound the keys

but not a note of music comes out

Just black on a white screen

But the screens talks more than my daughter

my sweet sweet daughter who keeps all

hours of the night open just for me

Then I recall her voice  Tuesday night

Tuesday night-

my daughter said "I want to be normal"

Silence

Jawdropped all I could do was just stare

Now I am the silent one

Angela

My name Angela means messenger. I certainly have a message. Her name is Athena  . She was born early and sizable at 10 lbs 13 oz. ..
   She developed as most babies do: Normally.  She was babbling and smiling.  She was fine that February morning when everything changed. It was time for her catch up on her vaccinations. When I took her to a well baby check at the age of 8 months things changed drastically.  She had to get four vaccinations shots. One was the Dtap. How I wish I had known then what I know now. The dangers of vaccine reactions became real to us .

 Four years have passed since that day. Every detail sticks out in my mind while my stomach turns.  I remember the color of the floor mat at the entry way.  It was a dusty blue color that needed cleaning.  I still remember the smell of the room where the damage to my daughter happened. That the cabinet that held the vaccines with the glass shelves was on the far right wall as you entered. How unbelievably cold it was that day even in that so called sterile room. Outside the wind had whipped at my face. It was February just after Valentine's day.

Athena had been behind in her shots due to two light bouts of pnuemonia.  So this was the day to get caught up . I certainly wanted to keep my child "safe". I was hesistant about four shots.   I think most parents are uneasy at the site of a needle nearing their child.  I recall asking the nurse "Are you sure she needs four today?". She had long sleek dark brown hair and was of average weight.  She replied "Honey this is done all the time".  All the time I repeated its  for her good quietly to myself.  I suppose I was trying to make myself believe that somehow four shots in a little 8 mth old was alright.

    So the deed was done. I held my own flesh and blood down for the shots. Tears fell down my face.  I still have overwhelming guilt to this very day. I should have educated myself. Why didn't I go to the National Vaccine Site? How come I didn't listen to my inner voice screaming at me not to do this deed. Why didn't I ask to see the vaccine insert or even take a little extra time to ask her questions?
 When did this woman suddenly become the expert on my child's safety?

Four vaccination shots entered my defenseless baby's body.

    We left the doctor office through the door and walked on that dusty blue doormat that needed replacing.  How different life would be .  As I quickly put her in the car and made sure she was secure Athena started to fuss. Now I knew she might be a little fussy but the increase of distress was alarming. I had given Tylenol before we went into that room.
 
     We made it home. Athena was still crying as we entered our home.  
But the crying continued. I called the doctor's office after 35 minutes. She was starting to get warm and was still inconsolable. The nurse who treated me as a over worried mother, told me to wait a while longer for the medicine to work.
    I did wait. The only change was that my daughter's condition began to worsen. I called urgently again. The answering service had a nurse call back. I suppose the doctors were enjoying themselves and were too busy. My daughter had fever that was over 104 and vomiting. The nurse had the nerve to tell me to wait for the medicine to work again. She even suggested that I had not given the meds to her. I hung up the phone stunned.
    A short time after the phonecall, I changed Athena's diaper. There was a spotting of blood in her diaper. I froze. I did not know but at the time but her intestines had started to bleed.  She started to shake. She was having the first of a series of seizures. I had never seen my daughter in this condition before this day.  I bundled her up. And quickly ran with her to the car. I had forgotten my coat. The wind was so quick with the cold. 


   At the hospital a team of doctors and nurses surrounded my 8 month old daughter. She was seizing then lifeless. The vomiting became violent. I helped change the diaper again - more blood this time. I took a step back as others filled in the gap.  Overwhelmed emotions flooded my being. I have never felt so powerless. Another seizure hit. I remember telling Athena "Stay with me , Stay with momma". I then recall how I told my father to stay with me moments before he died.

     As I stepped back, I prayed desperately. I prayed as if I had a knife to my throat. Except that knife was a syringe and the ingredients so more deadly.  What would you have done?

They eventually stabilized my daughter. She was admitted. I wanted her in a room so quickly so she could rest.  I held her the majority of the night as she was inconsolable in crying. Again she was 8 mths old. 

The morning after I was exhausted from lack of sleep. My body was tired from recovering from Ovarian Cancer. The tests began on my little baby's body. She seemed stunned and very little eye contact.  I pulled Athena in a little red wagon while pushing her IV pole. I stumbled . hallway after hallway to the cat scans, ultra sounds, eegs and so on. The tests seemed to neverend. 

  The doctors seemed even when Athena was in the E.R. to be discussing Vaccine Reaction vs Horrible Virus. At the time I could not understand how a vaccine could cause such horrible damage. Vaccines were supposed to protect my child! They were still "discussing" the source of my daughter's condition . She was eventually released.

     I researched  what was in the vaccines.  I found Thimerosal, a vaccine preservative is still in the vaccines. Even today in 2008 they are in the vaccines. Thimerosal is 49.6% mercury. This vaccine filler bonds with the aluminum in the vaccine fillers to make it more deadly. I also found that they have estrogen in the vaccine fillers. I found that this causes girls to have a more severe reaction when they do have a reaction. I found that the estrogen bonds with the testerone in boys 4 times more than in girls. I think that is why we have more boys with autism. 

Then I hear that they had removed the mercury. Removed the mercury? I found out that statement was misleading. My child's vaccine and your child's vaccines have toxins in them including the vaccine filler/preservative thimerosal. when they "removed" the thimerosal/mercury they are kinda telling you the truth.

     They are referring to the legal term removal. In the pharmaceutical world this means that they can use the vaccine filler/preservative thimerosal (the one most people refer to) in the production of your child's vaccine. After production of the entire vaccine they are supposed to filter out the thimerosal. But wait isn't thimerosal almost half its weight in mercury. MERCURY. How do you filter out the mercury?  YOU DON"T. It is the second most deadly toxin in the world.


It went into my daughter. MY DAUGHTER. Know that I still cry when that thought is brought to my mind. I lift my eyes unto the hills whence where does my help come from . It comes from the lord. Maker of heaven and earth.

Why does this matter to me? As parents I believe we have the right to be informed. I see the medical establishment turning its head for the well being of society. THE WELL BEING? I would think life without injury due to vaccines would apply.

  So the deed was done. I had held my own flesh and blood down for the shots. Tears fell down my face.  I still have overwhelming guilt to this very day. I should have educated myself. Why didn't I go to the National Vaccine Site? How come I didn't listen to my inner voice screaming at me not to do this deed. Why didn't I ask to see the vaccine insert or even take a little extra time to ask the nurse questions?

 -       Its been four years since the reaction. The case will not progress in vaccine compensation court because not of the injuries but the statue of limitations. There is only three years to file. If you suspect your child to have a vaccine injury please talk to a attorney regarding your rights. Call the Vaers database. Your doctor is bound by law to report all vaccine reactions. But this fact alone does not mean it gets done.

      Did you know the government , your government set up the vaccine Compensation Court to protect the pharmaceutical  companies. If you are awarded a settlement the attorney does not get a cut . The government pays him/her for you. If you need a attorney you do not have to use one inside your state.

    Again its been four years since the vaccine reaction. It had almost killed her. I am still finding out about the damage weekly. Last week I found out she has Auditory Processing Disorder. Common in those that have Autism.
She scored a 0% on the test. That meant no child did worse than her. Wonderful news from the rehab audiologist.  

My daughter has seizures still. She has low muscle tone, poor body awareness, sensory issues,  a severe speech disorder, auditory processing disorder,  allergic to many things including latex and thimerosal. And of course Athena has Autism.
      If you do decide to vaccination go to the National Vaccine Information Site with Dr. Barabara Fischer. Do look at the insert inside the vaccine box. If the ingredient Thimerosal is or ethylmercury listed among them , DO NOT GET THE VACCINE.  If you still have the need to get the vaccine, ask for a thimerosal free vaccine. Even then thimerosal free is questionable.
   If you have questions ask me. I will try to answer.